this post is going to be a little different than usual.
i don't normally share my heart's true emotions on my blog.
i won't go into a whole lot of detail, so don't be scared!
a few days into January i started reading "the purpose driven life". i had read it before, in bible school. i got to day 3, entitled "what drives your life?". halfway through the chapter, i read this paragraph:
"without a clear purpose, you will keep changing directions, jobs, relationships, churches, or other externals - hoping each will settle the confusion or fill the emptiness in your heart. You think, "Maybe this time it will be different," but it doesn't solve your real problem - a lack of focus and purpose."
this is my life, in a nutshell. i have been living it unthinkingly: as in, without thought. moving here, going there, working at this job, doing that job. anything that struck my fancy, i would do...usually without prayer or a consultation with God...i expected Him to keep up with me...thinking that when things went smoothly, it was meant to be! i did all of these new things hoping to find happiness, contentment, a husband, wonderful friends...i was chasing dreams, hoping that physical change would bring about a change in my heart, would bring me closer to God.
needless to say, it doesn't work that way. and yes, i have JUST figured that out. God has just revealed that to me and i finally GET IT. i can move to Timbuktu and i won't be any happier there. i used to pride myself in being a world traveler, seeking new experiences, meeting new people, seeing the sights. those things aren't wrong, but i guess it's the process of how you get to those places that matter.
so anyway, here i am, delighted in this new truth that i've discovered - that God has revealed to me. i'm feeling free, light, radiant and full of joy and anticipation as i step forward to grasp the blessings that God has in store for me.
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13 January 2008
a little out of the ordinary...
this post is going to be a little different than usual.
i don't normally share my heart's true emotions on my blog.
i won't go into a whole lot of detail, so don't be scared!
a few days into January i started reading "the purpose driven life". i had read it before, in bible school. i got to day 3, entitled "what drives your life?". halfway through the chapter, i read this paragraph:
"without a clear purpose, you will keep changing directions, jobs, relationships, churches, or other externals - hoping each will settle the confusion or fill the emptiness in your heart. You think, "Maybe this time it will be different," but it doesn't solve your real problem - a lack of focus and purpose."
this is my life, in a nutshell. i have been living it unthinkingly: as in, without thought. moving here, going there, working at this job, doing that job. anything that struck my fancy, i would do...usually without prayer or a consultation with God...i expected Him to keep up with me...thinking that when things went smoothly, it was meant to be! i did all of these new things hoping to find happiness, contentment, a husband, wonderful friends...i was chasing dreams, hoping that physical change would bring about a change in my heart, would bring me closer to God.
needless to say, it doesn't work that way. and yes, i have JUST figured that out. God has just revealed that to me and i finally GET IT. i can move to Timbuktu and i won't be any happier there. i used to pride myself in being a world traveler, seeking new experiences, meeting new people, seeing the sights. those things aren't wrong, but i guess it's the process of how you get to those places that matter.
so anyway, here i am, delighted in this new truth that i've discovered - that God has revealed to me. i'm feeling free, light, radiant and full of joy and anticipation as i step forward to grasp the blessings that God has in store for me.
i don't normally share my heart's true emotions on my blog.
i won't go into a whole lot of detail, so don't be scared!
a few days into January i started reading "the purpose driven life". i had read it before, in bible school. i got to day 3, entitled "what drives your life?". halfway through the chapter, i read this paragraph:
"without a clear purpose, you will keep changing directions, jobs, relationships, churches, or other externals - hoping each will settle the confusion or fill the emptiness in your heart. You think, "Maybe this time it will be different," but it doesn't solve your real problem - a lack of focus and purpose."
this is my life, in a nutshell. i have been living it unthinkingly: as in, without thought. moving here, going there, working at this job, doing that job. anything that struck my fancy, i would do...usually without prayer or a consultation with God...i expected Him to keep up with me...thinking that when things went smoothly, it was meant to be! i did all of these new things hoping to find happiness, contentment, a husband, wonderful friends...i was chasing dreams, hoping that physical change would bring about a change in my heart, would bring me closer to God.
needless to say, it doesn't work that way. and yes, i have JUST figured that out. God has just revealed that to me and i finally GET IT. i can move to Timbuktu and i won't be any happier there. i used to pride myself in being a world traveler, seeking new experiences, meeting new people, seeing the sights. those things aren't wrong, but i guess it's the process of how you get to those places that matter.
so anyway, here i am, delighted in this new truth that i've discovered - that God has revealed to me. i'm feeling free, light, radiant and full of joy and anticipation as i step forward to grasp the blessings that God has in store for me.
6 comments:
Anonymous12:06 PMi know what you mean....it´s soooo very true! and it´s so not easy to accept it (it´s been a loooooong way for me!!!);
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when i was younger i always laughed at people who had their purpose, because i always thought that you need to change it all the time...that you reach a goal and than there´ll be the new challenge.....i couldn´t really accept that there has to be "the purpose" which gives you the chance to feel protected AND free (all at once); i didn´t understand that god already has this purpose in mind for you and that he wants you to find it, to find HIM!
and sure, in my thoughts, things had to be smoothley to be true and right (i still find myself thinking it.....).... south africa helped a lot to let those things go...even though i´m only realizing it now!
so glad for you that found yor very trzth about this......
love you lots!
leslie- Anonymous8:18 PM
Hi Leah, what a beautiful revelation God gave you! I love when that sort of thing happens.
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I'm excited for you too, loving the fact that God holds the future and surprises you with it!
Keep up the reading and be blessed.
I love you, auntie barb - Anonymous10:39 AM
Hi Leah, once again, I am blessed by your words and how God has shown you and blessed you with so much. What a beautiful thing, to have your eyes and heart opened to what God has been trying to tell you all along! Yippee!!!! I love that you could actually feel, physically, how light, radiant and full of joy you were. Blessings
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Leah, How exciting. I am glad that you wrote this down, because in a few months we change and you might need a reminder. And, not only that, but you blessed others by sharing. Thanks.
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Leah! That is wonderful. We are so ignorant sometimes. I am glad that God is revealing himself to you, and that you are getting it!
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I like this post - very refreshing!
Leah, thanks for sharing that with us. It's encouraging to hear what God is teaching you!! Love you!!
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i know what you mean....it´s soooo very true! and it´s so not easy to accept it (it´s been a loooooong way for me!!!);
ReplyDeletewhen i was younger i always laughed at people who had their purpose, because i always thought that you need to change it all the time...that you reach a goal and than there´ll be the new challenge.....i couldn´t really accept that there has to be "the purpose" which gives you the chance to feel protected AND free (all at once); i didn´t understand that god already has this purpose in mind for you and that he wants you to find it, to find HIM!
and sure, in my thoughts, things had to be smoothley to be true and right (i still find myself thinking it.....).... south africa helped a lot to let those things go...even though i´m only realizing it now!
so glad for you that found yor very trzth about this......
love you lots!
leslie
Hi Leah, what a beautiful revelation God gave you! I love when that sort of thing happens.
ReplyDeleteI'm excited for you too, loving the fact that God holds the future and surprises you with it!
Keep up the reading and be blessed.
I love you, auntie barb
Hi Leah, once again, I am blessed by your words and how God has shown you and blessed you with so much. What a beautiful thing, to have your eyes and heart opened to what God has been trying to tell you all along! Yippee!!!! I love that you could actually feel, physically, how light, radiant and full of joy you were. Blessings
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Leah, How exciting. I am glad that you wrote this down, because in a few months we change and you might need a reminder. And, not only that, but you blessed others by sharing. Thanks.
ReplyDeleteLeah! That is wonderful. We are so ignorant sometimes. I am glad that God is revealing himself to you, and that you are getting it!
ReplyDeleteI like this post - very refreshing!
Leah, thanks for sharing that with us. It's encouraging to hear what God is teaching you!! Love you!!
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